I don’t want to insinuate that I don’t enjoy my life at all as I do. I have a great life and a very full life. A different life to some but we all have our battles, our ups and our downs, however, I feel as though it’s just ‘head down and power through’ at the moment. I’m just getting through everyday, trying to keep the house presentable, Bear’s food intake healthy, activities enriching, the dog walked sufficiently, the blog ticking along and friendships alive.
I feel as though I’m in this stage as a means to an end. I have to get through this and then everything will calm down and we’ll live our Pinterest worthy, Instagramable life. The reality is that days, weeks and months are flashing by in the blink of an eye and I’m still treading water. I think I need to accept that this is life for now. I keep thinking that once Bear start’s school in September, things will slow down and I’ll get on top of things but I think I’m just fooling myself.
Bear has, and is, a very lucky and privileged boy. I joke that the day he realises that he’s not middle class, will be devastating! Due to my blog, my family and scrimping and saving, he has a life full of sports lessons, days out, trips and holidays, crafts and baking at home and enough toys to occupy him and enrich his imagination. All year, we have been talking about different times by relating them to events coming up. ‘Before Wales, we’ll do…..’ ‘After Wales, we’ll do this and then we’ll have sports day’. ‘After sports day, it’s camping and then that’. ‘After camping, it’s Spain and then we’ll be able to…’.
I’ve created little countdown calendars for the events and we count down in sleeps but suddenly, we’ve been to Wales, sports day was a blast, camping and the Deershed Festival was AMAZING and we go to Spain in 2 sleeps. 2 SLEEPS. The house is a mess, the boy ate spaghetti hoops and toast for lunch with no salad or veg in sight, he’s thankfully playing so nicely with his duplo as I write and the dog is asleep on the sofa.
The car is being cleaned as there is no way I could drive our friends to the airport in that health hazard. The black interior was almost white due to the Labrador’s hairs and the junk in the foot wells was embarrassing. Shorts need to be purchased due to a sudden, yet extreme growth spurt by the boy and I need a cheap bikini or two as I have decided to that it’s going to be too hot to care about a roll or two and I’m letting it all hang out (literally. Sorry if you see me on a beach in southern Spain). I need to pack and write a list of what to pack, schedule a few blog posts and…, and….., well, I know that there is more that I need to do.
So. This is a bit of a Hello and goodbye. Well, more of a see you later as I get everything sorted and prepare to be a lucky so and so and stay at my family’s house in Spain for a week.
Take care, I hope you are all well and I’ll see you soon.