Blogging Anxiety

blogging anxiety

blogging anxiety



I love blogging. I really do. It has opened up my world and I have made lovely friends and it has enabled me to give my son some fantastic experiences but it does come with a draw back for me.Blogging anxiety.

When I first started to blog, I wrote as therapy. My world had fallen apart. My pregnancy had gone all kinds of wrong, I developed post natal depression, my husband left, I became disabled and lost one or two very good friends in the process. I was receiving support from family, friends and professionals but I needed an outlet in between times.

I found blogs that were written by people who shared similar experiences. I gained strength by reading their posts and then writing my own. I didn’t write for anyone to read, just to get the words out of my head as they went round and round all night long. I kept it a secret from all my family and friends. One or two people may have read a post of mine but I wouldn’t have known.

After a year, I started to look into this whole blogging malarky. I joined online blogging advice, support and tech groups and started to read about bounce rates, DA’s, plug ins, self hosting and the odd bit of coding.
Slowly but surely I dipped my toe into the tech side and decided to go for it. I was going to brand my blog, go self hosted, change blogging platforms and quietly let people know that I had a blog.

It was scary but so much fun. I very quickly made contacts, listened and learned and I feel, in my first year of blogging openly, made a lot of progress and have done quite well. I haven’t monetised my blog (I don’t earn a penny from it) and so I don’t work with a lot of companies or have a huge amount of PR contacts but I’m happy. I’m proud to be a BIgJigs review vlogger and have great review relationships with some companies. I hope to monetise when Bear starts school in September as I’ll have more time to devote to it.

I’ve had one post that had over 20,000 views in 24hrs, and a few others that have had thousands but I don’t have the biggest readership out there. I’m kind of in the middle I think.

I’m just outside the top 500 in one parent blogging rating system that supposedly has 8,000 -10,000 blogs in it, I hover at about 150 in another and my social media stats are not too bad.

The problem with being at this stage is I’m doing ok but in order to do better, I need to do more which with chronic illness and being a single mum, is pretty hard. Sometimes, especially when Bear is unwell, I can be wiped out for over a week and there are lots of other things that take precedence over writing.

Now is the time of year for awards. The MADS (Mum and Dad awards) and BIBs (Brilliance in Blogging) are open for votes. A lot of bloggers are quite rightly writing posts to let their non blogging readers know that they can vote if they’d like to. It needs to be done. If you don’t tell anyone, how will they know but it’s a hard thing to do. I don’t feel good enough to ask for votes. I don’t want anyone to think that I think I’m something I’m not and I kind of feel as though there’s no point.

I know I shouldn’t compare my beginning to someone else’s middle – I can’t be as good or as high in the charts as the more established bloggers but the reality is that there are other bloggers that started at the same time as me and are doing better.

I’m going to keep going, but it’s hard to not feel a bit rubbish now and then. I wish I could be more controversial or funny but that’s just not me. I wonder where I’ll be next year. Hopefully still here as I love my little spot on the internet.

This isn’t a pity post or a veiled attempt at asking for votes. If you do want to vote for me or any other blogger, the details are below but please do not feel any pressure to do so. It’s nice to be nominated but I’ve not got a chance in hell of winning!

Thanks for reading and for your support. Your comments mean so much to me.



















  1. Hi Hannah,

    I feel your pain on the blogging front. I feel the same. I’m not sure I’m going to bother with the competitions. I don’t think I would have a chance in hell of winning.

    I have voted for you on both. I love reading your blog. You write from the heart and I like that.

    I think you deserve some recognition! xxxx


  2. I totally feel your pain! It is hard not to compare yourself to others. I see other bloggers in my niche and think well I must be crap because look how well they are doing and here I have barely anything. I just have to remind myself that I just started and it may take awhile to get where these other bloggers are at.

  3. I know exactly how you feel. I see bloggers who have only been going a month or two and have more followers and page views than I have and I’ve been going for over a year! I did write a post about the blog awards but I don’t expect any one to vote for me. I don’t exactly *put myself out there* I’m terrible at promoting my blog posts. I take part in a few linkys but that’s about it.
    I really enjoy reading your blog and I’m sure others do too. Good luck in the awards! x

  4. What a beautiful endearing honest post. I think the culture of compare and despair is just an inevitable thing when you are involved in any art form. And actually in some ways that’s what blogging is; writing a blog is a form of art and artists are always full of self doubt. I entered the awards this year after seeing myself already being nominated but even if I hadn’t been I’d have gone for it because what’s the worst that can happen? You have a lovely blog here so I was glad to see at the end you’ve gone for it. Can I just say, you don’t have to be controversial or funny. My blog is unintentionally the former and very intentionally the latter but that’s just one way to blog and that’s also my character. You’ve found your voice (and possibly don’t know it?). And let’s face it, if you can string proper enjoyable-to-read sentences together with impeccable grammar and spelling etc, you’re doing something right! So KEEP GOING x

  5. A really lovely post, so honest and real. I’ve put a post out in the last week, for the exact reasons that you mention – fear that if I dont put myself out there and raise my hand my blog and me will get forgotten amongst all the others. I dont expect to win, but its nice to take part and so why not raise your hand, throw your hand in the ring and just see what happens 🙂 Emily

  6. I enjoyed reading your open and honest post. It’s understandable that we compare ourselves now and again. In times like this it is worth questioning why we started was it really for stats? Thanks for hosting #WeekendBlogShare

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